I think about all those times my mother was super anxious about having a clean house. I can vividly remember the days that our house was unclean and the anxiety it gave my mom. My mom bleached floors all the time did laundry almost every day and had the house in order 90% of the time, with 3 boys and a girl.
I think what having a clean space meant to my mom was a peace of mind. This peace of mind I value now more than ever, and I never realized how such small details like having your house clean, an organized bag, a to-do list, and things like this meant in the long-run.
I remember last night when I didn’t charge my phone, and I woke up with 6% battery and the uncomfort I felt. Like shit like this effects your day, it seems small but these details matter. The scary thing about this all is that it took 27 years to understand how much this matters, and what scares me most of all now is the details I am still overlooking, like what do I not have organized that is giving me anxiety
I think as of right now it is probably my office work, it is chaos as a result of me never standardizing processes. Outside of my work it could probably be my irregular work out schedule. I guess I understand why people $100/hr for a trainer now, he worries about that shit for you so you can just show up and have one less thing to worry about. Finances as well, I think I do a good job to get on top of all of them, but we live in 2020, things should be automated, I should having money moving in and out like clockwork by now without the stress of me having to remember to pay this bill, or transfer this cash etc.
These things matter, and I should have taken the unsaid advice of my mother years ago.
1. Peace of mind is everything
2. Small things matter